The Day That Never Was

Two years ago today was the due date for our first pregnancy. That pregnancy ended in miscarriage 10 weeks into it, and we haven't been the same since.

Did our lives end? No. Did they change forever? Yes. Will this day always have a tinge of sadness, even when it is beautifully lit with spring? Maybe. I don't know yet.

What I have to remember is that without the experience of our loss, Noelle most likely would not have come to be...or at least not yet. I highly doubt we would have had a child in April and then turned around and had a baby the following March...though I suppose you would never know.

Baby #1, who we believed also was a girl, is playing and celebrating her 2nd birthday somewhere.